Ahh, I need to update this EVERY DAY! I feel like I'm letting so much pass by...God's teaching me new things DAILY...but lately, it's just been the recurring theme of being His Bride...His perfect; pure; forgiven Wife; His Beloved.
And realizing that I have to be completely, totally, satisfied with being in love with Him before He can send me the one I'm supposed to spend this life with on earth. Although I'm starting to wonder if both those events are going to happen a lot sooner than I previously intended...
either way, God is in control :) To Him be the glory. He is ALWAYS good.
My new favorite song, which basically embodies how God has been speaking to me lately:
"Beloved" by Tenth Avenue North
Love of My life
Look deep in My eyes
There you will find what you need
Give Me your life
The lust and the lies
The past you're afraid I might see
You've been running away from Me
You're My Beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
My love it unites us
And it binds you to Me
It's a mystery...
Love of My life
Look deep in My eyes
There you will find what you need
I'm the Giver of Life
I'll clothe you in white
My immaculate bride you will be
Oh come running home to Me
You're My Beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
My love it unites us
And it binds you to Me
You've been a mistress, my wife
You're chasing lovers that won't satisfy
Won't you let Me make you My Bride?
You will drink of My lips
And you'll taste new life
♥
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
Part II: Changes
Last few days have been so busy...
and so full of God. I wanna talk about the wedding, and church yesterday, and Global Day of Prayer...that's the thing about journal entries. They intimidate me. I feel like I have sooo much to talk about, and too short of an attention span to type it all out.
I guess the major thing that God has placed on my heart is a sense of urgency. I don't have TIME to dwell on things that are not of future consequence. I was put on this earth to bring glory to God, to worship Him and be in His word...and that should be my top priority, and a lot of my activities should be centered around that.
Thus, when I figured out that the WHOLE SUMMER at Destiny was all about the book of Ephesians, I was so psyched! That's my favorite book in the whole Bible. So I'm gonna be down there every Saturday night this Summer :)
And prayer room...God's put it on my heart like, 3 months ago, that I should be spending a LOT of my mornings there. I'm REALLY hoping I can wake up early enough tomorrow that I can do that, even though it's already almost 12:30 am right now. ahhh.
But getting to dive into the word, pray hxc, and intercede on a very regular basis will do WONDERS for my heart. I'm thinking every Tuesday and Thursday morning??? Maybe more, I'll have to see what my sleeping and work schedule will allow.
Idk why I'm SOO excited about this...I guess just because I know it will help me shift my focus. I want my eyes to be trained upon Christ and His future for my life, not friend drama or guys or my family issues. If I get so crazy about Him, I'll be better able to resist temptation.
Plus, I've got a lot to pray about.
I'm seeing friends change and get closer to who they're supposed to be. And I'm seeing people drift away...and I see the ones He's calling back. My new best friend is changing in some really awesome ways, and I wanna see God change her more! Would make me OVERJOYED. I want to see my old friend stop fighting and realize that God knows that he's beautiful just the way he is, and I'm not giving up until I see evidence that that has happened. And my best friend...even right now, he's saying TERRIBLE things to me that are NOT true. ahhh. I don't know what he's gonna do without me. And He's saying that he doesn't even believe in God anymore :( Oh, Lord, bring him back to You.
and so full of God. I wanna talk about the wedding, and church yesterday, and Global Day of Prayer...that's the thing about journal entries. They intimidate me. I feel like I have sooo much to talk about, and too short of an attention span to type it all out.
I guess the major thing that God has placed on my heart is a sense of urgency. I don't have TIME to dwell on things that are not of future consequence. I was put on this earth to bring glory to God, to worship Him and be in His word...and that should be my top priority, and a lot of my activities should be centered around that.
Thus, when I figured out that the WHOLE SUMMER at Destiny was all about the book of Ephesians, I was so psyched! That's my favorite book in the whole Bible. So I'm gonna be down there every Saturday night this Summer :)
And prayer room...God's put it on my heart like, 3 months ago, that I should be spending a LOT of my mornings there. I'm REALLY hoping I can wake up early enough tomorrow that I can do that, even though it's already almost 12:30 am right now. ahhh.
But getting to dive into the word, pray hxc, and intercede on a very regular basis will do WONDERS for my heart. I'm thinking every Tuesday and Thursday morning??? Maybe more, I'll have to see what my sleeping and work schedule will allow.
Idk why I'm SOO excited about this...I guess just because I know it will help me shift my focus. I want my eyes to be trained upon Christ and His future for my life, not friend drama or guys or my family issues. If I get so crazy about Him, I'll be better able to resist temptation.
Plus, I've got a lot to pray about.
I'm seeing friends change and get closer to who they're supposed to be. And I'm seeing people drift away...and I see the ones He's calling back. My new best friend is changing in some really awesome ways, and I wanna see God change her more! Would make me OVERJOYED. I want to see my old friend stop fighting and realize that God knows that he's beautiful just the way he is, and I'm not giving up until I see evidence that that has happened. And my best friend...even right now, he's saying TERRIBLE things to me that are NOT true. ahhh. I don't know what he's gonna do without me. And He's saying that he doesn't even believe in God anymore :( Oh, Lord, bring him back to You.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Beauty From Ashes; Part I
I'm Heather Rose.
...and I really don't know how to start this off!
I've always been a pretty open person. But lately, I've closed up on myself. I don't like trusting; I've been hurt so many times. So it's odd that I want to post up some of my more personal thoughts in a public forum. This isn't like me.
But this won't be a super personal gush-fest. This isn't going to be like reading my diary, and this isn't going to be some boy-obsessed tirade or random rants about what I did with my time that day.
I have too many goals, too many dreams; too many visions and wishes and hopes and prayers to waste one more bit of it on things that are trivial or that cause me to get my focus off of the One who gives me breath.
I'm making this blog to chronicle the changes that are going to take place in me during this summer, and hopefully beyond.
The changes that will develop me from a scared, vain, learning girl (what I am now) to a God-obsessed, confident, strong woman (what I will become). Even though that will be a process that takes a lifetime, I'm already recognizing some amazing changes that God has already begun to work in me.
God has been putting me in the face of my biggest fears lately; molding me and shaping me into who He wants me to be; emptying me and filling me with Him. I've learned that while this process can be extremely fulfilling, it is also EXTREMELY painful.
But I am privileged. He is beginning to speak through me and move in me like never before. He's showing me the wonderful future He has for me, the plans that have not yet come to pass, and He's teaching me how to trust Him.
This is also the time that I'm dealing with SO much opposition from the other side. The devil has been pulling on me hardcore. But resisting the devil will make him flee, and to do that, I've been worshiping right when I feel like giving up.
I feel like a warrior :) For the first time in my life. I feel like I'm part of a battle. And it's hard as all get-out. But I love it. Cause I already know that I'm on the winning side.
So for the few of you who read this over the next few months...you are going to watch God bring beauty from these ashes :)
...and I really don't know how to start this off!
I've always been a pretty open person. But lately, I've closed up on myself. I don't like trusting; I've been hurt so many times. So it's odd that I want to post up some of my more personal thoughts in a public forum. This isn't like me.
But this won't be a super personal gush-fest. This isn't going to be like reading my diary, and this isn't going to be some boy-obsessed tirade or random rants about what I did with my time that day.
I have too many goals, too many dreams; too many visions and wishes and hopes and prayers to waste one more bit of it on things that are trivial or that cause me to get my focus off of the One who gives me breath.
I'm making this blog to chronicle the changes that are going to take place in me during this summer, and hopefully beyond.
The changes that will develop me from a scared, vain, learning girl (what I am now) to a God-obsessed, confident, strong woman (what I will become). Even though that will be a process that takes a lifetime, I'm already recognizing some amazing changes that God has already begun to work in me.
God has been putting me in the face of my biggest fears lately; molding me and shaping me into who He wants me to be; emptying me and filling me with Him. I've learned that while this process can be extremely fulfilling, it is also EXTREMELY painful.
But I am privileged. He is beginning to speak through me and move in me like never before. He's showing me the wonderful future He has for me, the plans that have not yet come to pass, and He's teaching me how to trust Him.
This is also the time that I'm dealing with SO much opposition from the other side. The devil has been pulling on me hardcore. But resisting the devil will make him flee, and to do that, I've been worshiping right when I feel like giving up.
I feel like a warrior :) For the first time in my life. I feel like I'm part of a battle. And it's hard as all get-out. But I love it. Cause I already know that I'm on the winning side.
So for the few of you who read this over the next few months...you are going to watch God bring beauty from these ashes :)
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